Long time since I posted on this thing, it’s nice since only one or two people can read it.
Recently asked out two different people from work, and both haven’t ended up so well. I’m really at the point where I miss companionship, and it definitely hurts more since I know how it was like to have it. To have someone to confide into, it’s just a really nice thing. I miss it.
Don’t know why I decided to spend my birthday mostly by myself. I guess I get depressed this time around more because of the thought that I have accomplished nothing, than anything else. My friends and family are going on with their lives and I feel like I’m stuck - and for many reasons I have.
For today, my 20th, I’ll try to make good on the promises I made to myself. Don’t do it for them, do it for yourself. I want to be better for myself, I don’t want to be better for THEM. I’m a big believer in the idea that you are the center of your own world, and that is why you should do everything in your power to mold yourself into the perfect person you consider yourself to want to be.
When you feel genuinely sad and alone. You try to start conversations with people and no one is available. It’s debilitating.